I’d been working for perfection in every aspects in my life. I always thought that’s a great thing because that means the results I produced has great quality. And people who utilize the results or get helped in any way makes me feel amazing. Even though in the end, nobody took the results. Just to see people’s admiration of “that’s a great production” facial expression makes me feel good. So superficial of me back then ughhh.
But that was me. I had to face this girl courageously so as to fix the problem. And I’m so glad to say that I rehabilitated at the moment lol.
As an petroleum engineer, when estimating how much amount of oil and gas can we extracted from the reservoir(subsurface pool which contain hydrocarbon), we would have to take many parameters into consideration based on the field data. There is a parameter called porosity, which basically tells you how much space is there to consist oil, gas, etc.
Do you know for a 640 acres reservoir, the difference of estimated oil we can extract can go up to 780 thousands barrels of oil between using 12.5% and 12.8% for the porosity(could be more depends on rock and fluid properties, but I don’t want to put you into sleep lol). Say oil price is 70USD per barrel, that’s 54.6million dollars there!
Key point being, how tiny change can affect results dramatically. 0.003 can possibly affect 54.6 million dollars. That is why I want everything to go as perfect as it can, and don’t want it to go wrong. Company paid me for a good quality evaluation. Therefore, with respect of time, “striving for perfection” had rooted deeply in my mind. Honestly, I got upset about myself when I didn’t reach the perfection. More seriously, I’d scold myself for not doing as good as I should.
You know how crazy I could get before, about desiring to make everything perfect? I would want things on my table to be in a certain order, and with certain angle!! Same files are put together. The paper size has to be the same. Shades of color has to be similar. I fastidiously want everything to be in a certain way so that it’ll be perfect.
I talked about this with my mom when I found that this is a serious issue. My mom said she’s not surprised. She told me that when I was in the third year of elementary school, one day I went back home and cried so hard. My mom worried if I got bullied at school so she asked what happened. “I didn’t get 100 on math test, mom, I only got 98,”. She said she wanted to turn her eyes over at the time because she didn’t want to hurt my little soul.
She continued to say that self-awareness affect how successful people are going to be. Which is the very reason why she didn’t told me about my problem directly. She wanted me to fall down, learn from mistakes and realize from my heart that there’s a problem and I have to solve it.
Back then, I noticed that I was stuck. Stuck in a safe zone where I can’t make improvement. Especially I could feel that within my heart there’s always a voice of entrepreneurial girl. This girl wants to go out there and start her online business. But at the same time she’s so afraid because she didn’t have any skill sets. She didn’t have enough knowledge. She’s Asian. She has no good looking appearance. English is not her mother language, and so on and so forth.
“I’m not going to produce anything because I can’t make it perfectly.” This was the mindset she had back then.What she didn’t know was that
Pursuing perfection stops people from improving.
After reading many books written by successful entrepreneurs(e.g. Crushing it by Gary Vaynerchuk, High performance habits by Brendon Burchard, Millionaire success habits by Dean Graziosi, 10X rule by Grant Cardone,etc. ), as well as watching successful people in all walks of lives, observing their path from starting stage to current successful stage, perfection is not required! So I started to search how to start online business from scratch. The more I researched, the more I found that you don’t have to be tech-savvy, don’t have to have tons of knowledge or skill sets to start your online business.
Then I started and built everything from scratch, with the mind of ” looking for improvement, not perfection.” AND actual work at the same time. Honestly, I got more progress! Therefore, if I were to say only one crucial mindset you have to have if you really want to succeed in your online business. Especially you are in the transition of leaving your 9-5 job and getting into building your online business, I’d say pursuing improvement not perfect.
Plus, People take risks all the time. Did the successful people out there start with perfection?